Trans school shooter Audrey Hale who killed 6 — including 3 kids — wrote about ‘imaginary penis’ in screed
Audrey Hale, the transgender shooter who𒈔 killed three adults and three chil✤dren at a Christian school in Tennessee last spring, detailed her “imaginary penis” in a newly-revealed screed.
“My penis exists in my head. I swear to god I’m a male,” Hale, who had started to go by Aiden at the time of the shooting, w🐽rote on one page in their diary, four dozen pages of which were obtained by the Tennessee Star.
The entry also described Hales’ agonizing 🧔experience as a trans man and included&nb👍sp;at least one drawing, referencing Hale’s desire to have sex with women.
Hale described being raised as a girl as “torture,” adding they feared being “being called a dyke or a f—-t” during high school, the outlet reported.
Hale learned more about trans people during 😼college,ꩲ and felt like they finally found the solution to their discontent.
“I finally found the answer – thatꦰ changing 🐬one’s gender is possible,” Hale explained in one entry.
Hale’s mother, however, seemed opposed to the id✤ea.
“What she believes, how she grew up, conservatively, and that LGBTQ — especially transgender — was an enigma, nearly non-existent,” Hale wrote.
“I hate parental views; how my mom sees me as a daughter — and she’d not bear to want to lose that daughter because a son would be the death of Audrey,” they added.
They continued ☂to express their frustration at their parents’ refusal to support their transition, and wrote about wishing they had access to puberty blockers.
“I’d kill to have those resources; 2007 was the birth of puberty blockers and a newfound discovery for treatment of non-conforming transgender children,” Hale lamented. “I was in the 6th grade⛎, puberty already hit me.”
“I should not be in thꦉis body!” another ent🐠ry read. “Nothing on earth can save me… never ending pain. Religion won’t save.”
“If God wo🧜n’t give me a boy body in heaven, then Jesus 𒐪is a f****t,” the rant continued.
On another page, Hale det﷽ailed how they played out theirဣ fantasies about having sex as a man using stuffed toys.
“I can pretend to be them [and] ✅do the things boys do [and] experience my boy self as Tony,” they wrote, referring to a “stuffed boy doll” that “is like the boy I am in another form.”
At one poinꦑt, Hale described becoming so enthralleಌd in their fantasies that they lost track of time and missed a gym session.
“God, I am such a pervert.” Hale wrote.🤡 “I waste too muc🔥h time in my fantasies.”
Hale, 28, wrote the self-hating entry just 16 days before March 27, 2023, when they shot through t🐷he front doors of the Convent School and killed three 9-year-olds and three adults.
In the wake of the tragedy, authorities found indications that Hale🗹 had become increasingly depressed and even planned on targeting the schܫool one month earlier.
In an en💛try dated Feb. 28, 2023, Hale🥃 wrote, “Convent was closed yesterday. I guess it was [because] of the weather.”
Their entries in the weeks before the shootin♏g had also belied a growing frustration with the politics around gun ownership and LGBTQ+ issues.
“So now in America, it makes one a criminal to have a gun or, be transgender, or non-binary. God I hate those sh–head politicians,” Hale wrote on Feb. 20.
“So now [because] of you, I wish death on myself cause of the pure hatred of my femal♔e gender,” theဣy added, stipulating that “with no rights, anyone’s country is a s***** dictatorship.”
In the years before the shooting, Hale ––who attended art school – had been prescribed multiple medications, including the antidepressant Lexapro and the anti-anxiety drug Buspirone, a search warrant revealed.
They also had thoughts of killing their father and committ💛ing school shooting, the warran✅t said.
Hale also reportedly used funds from a federal Pell🧜 Grant to buy guns, according to 99.7 ♎WTN radio host Brian Wilson.
In her final entry dated the day of the shooting, Hale referred to “Death Day” and admitted to being n🏅ervo𝕴us and excited about the pending rampage.
“The day has finally come. I can’t believe it’s here. Don’t know how I wasﷺ able to get this far, but here I am,” they wrote.
“There were several t🍎imes I could have been caught, especially back in the s💜ummer of 2021,” they added.
A few hours later, Hale’s brief reign of terror ended꧋ in a hail of bullets as they were gunned down by Metropolitan Nashville Police Department officers.
The rampage ended in a hail of bullets, with Hale gunned down ☂by Metropolitan Nashville Police Department officers as they shot out of a window at the school.
In the year since the shooting, the families of the victims have pleaded with the cour൲ts not to release Hale’s trove of 𒁃writings, which iꦡncluded a suicide note and at least 20 journals.
“I w🗹ill not stand by to allow these shooter’s writings be published in any way. This mass murderer 🍎doesn’t get to speak from the grave,” Erin Kinney, whose 9-year-old son William was killed in the shooting, wrote last month.
